Photograph by John Dominic Barbarino

WE’RE SO HONORED!

WINNER
2023 Publishing Triangle Randy Shilts Award
for Gay Nonfiction

WINNER
2023 Independent Publisher “IPPY”
”Gold” Award for LGBTQ+ Nonfiction

FINALIST
2023 Lambda Literary Award
Gay Memoir/Biography

Now Available

Boy with the Bullhorn is an immersive, chronological history of the New York chapter of ACT UP, the AIDS Coalition to Unleash Power, and a memoir of the coming-of-age and activist education of a nice gay Jewish wannabe actor during the darkest years of the AIDS epidemic, told with great heart and surprising humor. It offers an intimate look into the group’s tactics and strategies as we successfully battled politicians, researchers, drug companies, religious leaders, the media, and an often-uncaring public to change the course of the AIDS epidemic. Combining personal accounts with diligent documentation, it captures the spirit of ACT UP and the adrenaline rush of activism―the anger and grief, but also the love, joy, and camaraderie.

And if you’d rather listen to me tell the story, rather than read it, you can hear me sing, chant, and kvetch on the audiobook.

A Chant Queen is Born.

At ACT UP’s Monday night meeting on March 27, 1989, I lead a packed room at the Lesbian & Gay Community Center through a series of chants targeting Mayor Ed Koch and the city’s paltry response to the AIDS crisis in preparation for the following morning’s massive “Target City Hall” demonstration. (Beginning at 0:44.)

My Acceptance Speech upon winning the Publishing Triangle Randy Shilts Award for Gay Nonfiction (April 27, 2023) - begins at 57:36.

Interviews & Podcasts

Reading and discussion with ACT UP veterans and authors Ron Goldberg and K.M. Soehnlein. (Green Arcade Bookstore, San Francisco, CA. December 1, 2022)

Reviews and Articles

ACT UP TIMELINE

I created this timeline in an attempt to capture the density of our lives as AIDS activists from 1987 to 1994. It includes highlights of what was going on internally inside ACT UP,/New York, as well as our zaps and demonstrations. It also marks key AIDS-related events, as well as important NYC and national events. And finally, it notes the AIDS-related deaths of ACT UP members and other notables. While it is comprehensive, it is not complete, and there are still dates and events I’m trying to confirm. If you know of missing items or have corrections, feel free to let me know at ron@boywiththebullhorn.com.

What People Are Saying about Boy with the Bullhorn

“In this long-awaited, searing memoir, Ron Goldberg, a central figure in early AIDS activism, takes us to the crackling inner-sanctum of ACT UP, the direct-action protest group that demanded–and won–steep increases in government spending and scientific action against the disease. Written as to an old friend, with warmth and dark humor, he recalls the chaotic strategizing sessions and bruising internal battles that put ACT UP in headlines for nearly a decade, and the band of street protesters he rallied onward with his bullhorn. This is political history at its most raw. But it is also Goldberg’s own unthinkable coming-of-age story, set in the darkest of eras. In his story, students of this groundbreaking organization finally have the definitive, 3-D account: every demonstration, drug trial, victory, and setback; plus the men and women who gave Goldberg the courage to survive and the reason to love. Buckle your seatbelts, readers. It’s a wild ride.”

— David France, author of How to Survive a Plague

“In Boy with the Bullhorn, Ron Goldberg offers a stirring perspective on one of the most important social movements of the 20th Century as he recounts his coming of age in―and through–the tumult and triumphs of ACT UP. Whether describing the productive contentiousness of Monday-night floor meetings, the thrill of civil disobedience actions, the impact of a queer Passover seder with fellow activists, the relentless sorrow of too many funerals and memorial services or his birth as ACT UP’s rousing 'chant queen,' Goldberg details how grief, fury, rigorous labor, and deep love fueled his own, and the group’s, actions. Told with insight, humor, a huge heart, and abundant dramatic flair, this is a story about the pleasures, power, and necessity of activism.-”

— Alisa Solomon, author and journalist

“Ron Goldberg's Boy with the Bullhorn is an essential coming-of-age memoir, as a nice Jewish boy finds his way in the world as an impassioned gay man, and as a movement coalesces in the face of the defining plague of the late twentieth century. Goldberg tells his own story with great passion and healthy doses of humor, and he presents the sprawling history of ACT UP activism with the thoughtful rigor of a historian. Deeply personal, refreshingly modest, and as hopeful and optimistic as it is, as warranted, moving and elegiac, this is a marvelous work of living history, and I'm sure that readers who lived through the Age of AIDS and those for whom it feels like someone else's history will find it hugely rewarding.”

— Benjamin Dreyer, New York Times bestselling author of Dreyer’s English

“Ron Goldberg’s Boy with the Bullhorn is something special. It’s not just the story of ACT UP and his coming of age with the organization but a bearing witness to a tragedy that took the lives of so many of his, our, friends, way, way before their time. In deep detail, Ron tells the story of how a nation abandoned a generation of young men and women, left them to die, ignored and how they fought back to survive. But even with footnotes galore, beyond the history what comes shining through this narrative is the beating heart of ACT UP, the sorrow, the anger, the joy and yes, humor of those moments, because Ron personified so much of who we were in those days long ago. And this is a more than a testament, a valedictory, it is a challenge to a new generation to take up the struggle. In showing how a small group of committed individuals changed the world, most of them terribly young, Ron provides hope that the challenges we face now from COVID19 to climate change, are not just fate, things which we must just surrender to, but we can and must act up and fight back. I can hear Ron’s voice in these pages, full of passion, full of hope, sassy and funny, cajoling us, urging us on once again. Pick up that bullhorn. Let’s go.

— Gregg Gonsalves, Yale School of Public Health

“What a lively, richly textured history of ACT UP New York, a coalition of people who, united in anger, fought to the death to save our lives, and the lives of our comrades, lovers, and friends. Moving with ease between the personal and the political, Ron Goldberg captures the sights and sounds of the early years of the AIDS crisis, and of the activist response to it. In this book, the Boy with the Bullhorn shows himself a gifted and generous movement griot.” — Kendall Thomas

“In Boy With The Bullhorn, Ron Goldberg offers extraordinary insight into the collective draw of ACT UP, how AIDS activism opened our hearts to care for the most vulnerable among us, and how a mix of queer activists, undaunted by the stigma of AIDS challenged the multiple structural violences of the US healthcare and welfare systems. Combining a coming-of-age narrative with a meticulously documented social history of his years in ACT UP New York from 1987 to 1995, Goldberg uses his caustic, campy “chant queen” voice to serve up a theatrical recounting of ACT UP’s creative expressions of civil disobedience. The real fierceness of Goldberg’s narrative lies in his insistent position as historical witness to the sexist, racist, and anti-gay government response to the AIDS crisis, exploding the reader’s perception of who we were as activists, the political changes we accomplished, and how through ACT UP we became the fullest and best expression of ourselves.”

— Debra Levine, Director of Studies, Dance & Media, Harvard University

“A highly readable, brisk and factually based account of one of America's most seminal political movements of the past 50 years, told with great down-to-earth heart and a much-needed touch of campy, nice-gay-Jewish-boy humor from someone who was there and who was a part of it all. Goldberg's account of ACT UP sets itself apart from other titles on the movement with its sense of balance, fair-mindedness and above all focus on the sustaining role of love, friendship and even good old fun at a time of immense fear, sorrow and stress for many in NYC's 1980s-1990s queer and HIV/AIDS communities.”

— Tim Murphy, author of Christodora and Correspondents

“Ron Goldberg’s passion ignites every page of this powerful, fiery memoir. ‘Inspiring’ might seem too trite a word to describe such a rich offering, but that’s exactly what this memoir is. It inspires in the deepest sense of that adjective, giving breath and life to history that continues to ripple out into our continuing organizing work. Those who need a good mix of rage, humor, and hope to keep them acting up will find plenty here to push, provoke, and empower.” Micah Bucey, author of The Book of Tiny Prayer

“ACT UP New York, the mothership of queer history’s greatest movement, has long deserved a definitive narrative history. Boy with the Bullhorn delivers one beautifully. Who knew our “Chant Queen,” Ron Goldberg, was taking such careful and insightful notes, documenting every twist and turn the movement took? The sheer volume of activism we pulled off will astound those new to this history. Ron contextualizes every demo, defining the myriad issues, targets, and the resulting victories or fallout―warts and all. But even as he shares the excitement of being a part of this hyperactive AIDS movement, he doesn’t forget the epidemic’s devastating toll. Each chapter of the book is interrupted by their names in bold: David, Michael, Mark, and the others Ron lost. You’ll fall in love with each of them, and then watch them slip away. You’ll want to grab a bullhorn and scream.”

— Peter Staley, author of Never Silent: ACT UP and My Life in Activism

“Goldberg is a brilliant chronicler of one of the most important social and political movements of the last century. His first-hand accounts, his insights, his dedication to accuracy, and his erudition make this book a vital contribution to our understanding of that period.” — Moisés Kaufman, Artistic Director, Tectonic Theater Project

“Ron Goldberg came from a suburban background where middle-class Jewish boys were not supposed to rebel. Yet, his inner sense of justice, and his joy in performing and being socially connected to others led him to become a rank and file member of ACT UP, NY, thereby making a contribution essential for the intensely inter-dynamic movement to succeed in all the ways it did. His memoir of what he did and how he felt, in the face of a painful and complex emergency, contributes specificity of detail from inside his experience and will contribute to further filling-in of the larger, broader history. Another valuable chapter in what will hopefully be an unfolding series of varied and contrasting eyewitness contributions.”

— Sarah Schulman, author of Let the Record Show: A Political History of ACT UP 1987 -1993

“As the first fifteen years, 1981 to 1996, of the global AIDS crisis drift further from memory and evermore into the past, there has been an urgent need for survivors of that period to tell their stories, document the losses, share the strategies that helped activists overcome government and medical neglect of the pandemic, and convey the complex array of emotions – not always of grief, often of joy in community and personal agency – that characterized the era for people who lived through it and with it and in spite of it. I can hardly imagine a better narrator of that story than Ron Goldberg. Anyone who went to an ACT UP meeting or demonstration between 1987 and 1995 knew him as an organizer, street activist, and composer of ingenious chants. His audacity, theatricality, political acuity, and profound commitment to the AIDS and LGBTQ communities typified the best qualities of ACT UP New York, and are everywhere in evidence in Boy with the Bullhorn, a book that shows us not just how to survive a crisis, but how to become ourselves in the midst of it.”

— John Weir, author of The Irreversible Decline of Eddie Socket and What I Did Wrong

I’m a nice gay Jewish theater queen turned activist and writer.

I joined ACT UP, the AIDS Coalition to Unleash Power, in 1987, and for the next eight years, I chaired committees, planned protests, led teach-ins, and facilitated our weekly meetings. I visited friends in hospitals, attended far too many AIDS memorials, participated in over a hundred zaps and demonstrations, and earned the title of ACT UP’s unofficial “Chant Queen.” It was the hardest, most intense, most rewarding, most joyous, and most devastating time of my life. Aware that I had witnessed history, it became my mission to record what happened and to make sure our story was not forgotten.

Photograph by Joey Stamp

August 18, 9:30 - 11 p.m.

I will be participating in a presentation to medical students on HIV/AIDS and patient advocacy with Dr. Brian Harper, Chief Medical Officer and VP of Equity and Inclusion. Dr. Harper trained at Harlem Hospital Center during the height of the AIDS Crisis and was the first Director of the Bureau of HIV Services at the Nassau County Department of Health in the early 1990s. Patient advocacy is another area where ACT UP has had a tremendous impact, not only in the streets but in hospital corridors and the halls of science.

NYIT College of Osteopathic Medicine
Riland Auditorium
Old Westbury, NY

UPCOMING EVENTS . . .

November 10, 2:30 - 4 p.m.

New York Institute of Technology
16 W. 61st St., 11th-floor Auditorium
New York, NY

I’ll be piloting my “Activist Shark Tank,” a new, interactive activist strategy workshop, with students from New York Tech. I’ll outline some nonviolent activist strategies, offer a couple of case studies from the ACT UP archives, and then divide the attendees into affinity groups, asking them to come up with an action proposal on an issue of their choice and present it to the larger group for discussion and critique.